&the greying vision

Monday, June 18, 2007 9:42 PM

I'M FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING PISSED OFF!
ALL THE FUCKING ISSUES HAPPENED IN A DAY!
I CAN'T TAKE THE FUCKING PRESSURE THAT IT'S GIVING ME!
cant ~~you~~ help me?

i simply hate all those pressure pressing on me.!
it's making my heart pain!
yes! it's pain!
i could feel it, as though it's a needle peircing through!
i can't breath properly!
i near to a breakdown!
i need time for all those!
i need time to adapt the stress!
SERIOUSLY I NEED TIME!
but all my schedule is packed like FUCKING NOBODIES' BUSINESS!
dont come ask me why please.
seriously.
i need time for myself!

yes, i'm wild this few days.
kept going out.
even lied to my mum i was at project,
when the fact is i'm at my friend's house slack!
i'm seriously guilty bout that.
but wat can i do?!
i need relaxing!
seriously.

i maybe the everyday-smiling-joking cindy you all might see.
but in fact, i wouldn't want to let others see my sadness side.
i know they will be down, and i don't want that!
i don't want my friends to be down because of me!

i'm sorry that i need a place to vent my anger, which i dint want to use food to do it!
let me alone!
i need chinger! :(
i need my darlings!

i think "it" really needs a specs to see properly.
what's right what's wrong!?
"it" have such a good "it" in front of "it".
yet "it" just blindly let "it" go.
and "it" really dont cherish the chances.
what happened?
oh fuck!
and that's what happened.
and "it" might be "it" fucking fault!
oh fuck again!
why must "it" be "it" to take the blame!?
"it" is fucking pissed off.

heyy jim,
if you're reading this!
cheerios! i know you wouldn't cry bout that.
but dun be soo emo alright?!
i'm so not use to you being emo!
CHEERIOS!
i'll be there for you! =)

lastly,
HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY MY DEAR YUXIAN! =)
god bless!

LOVES,
`cindy

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